torn...

Long time No post! Went to vacation in AZ. Yeah I know no one goes to vacation in AZ in the summer but I did. Of course it was blistering hot. I don't think I have ever had just a good time visiting Az as I did this time. There was just something about it, something peaceful and relaxing. Usually I feel so rushed. This time was...PERFECT! I love to see my family and I love to see my friends. Being is Az makes Cali seem so far away and out of reach. I love living in L.A. but Az is simple. After this trip I am torn with this feeling of doubt. I don't know where I want my life to be in a year from now. I think living in Az would be better, we could have a house, dogs, kids. But then I LOVE my jobs here in Cali and I know that a great job is hard to find. I just don't know what to do, or when to do it. I wait for ez to make a move with his life and figure out what he wants. Really in the end I just want us to be happy wherever we may be. I wish AZ and Cali could merge together to make Calizona.